Stunned? Yep. Disappointed? Absolutely. Scared? Deeply. I’ve been on the verge of tears all day, really having trouble keeping my shit together. To think that the country I love will soon have a president who seems to be such a bigot and misogynist is beyond my comprehension. I say seems to be, because I just don’t know who the real Donald Trump is. He has flip flopped on so many issues over the years that how can anyone trust anything he has to say? In my heart of hearts I wonder if he really wanted to be president, or if he just wanted to win so he could say he won. Woe be unto us in any case.
I really have never had an election affect me this way, and I’ve been on the losing side a few times in the past. But this one has rocked my soul somehow. I guess I feel that my faith in the American people was misplaced. I never really thought he had a snowball’s chance in hell. How wrong I was. I went to bed last night hoping that when I woke up my nightmare would be over. Instead, it was just beginning.
I’m going to do all I can to keep an open mind. I sincerely hope that my America is stronger than Donald Trump. No, I BELIEVE that my America is stronger than he is. There is no way he will ever be able to pull off all the crap he has said he will. A wall? I doubt it. But I doubted this day, too, so who knows? My biggest fear is the Supreme Court. I shudder to think what can happen in the days to come.
All I can do is try my best to move forward. That’s all any of us can do. This is a bleak day, though, no doubt about it…